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[19 Oct 2004|11:37pm] |
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Hi again :) Loooooooooong time since I posted! Lotta stuff happened too...O.o. Ryan and I are still together, and he may be coming up this summer but I have no idea heh. Anyways, my Nina is still alive but my grandpa passed away August 24th or something. I cried the whole week before he died, and got to see him and talk to him before he passed away. I miss him so much, but I know hes better where hes at. Right now, my life is going crazy. School is such a burden, the teachers are fucking retarded. Im having a difficult time with my friends...again. Kinda, iunno. I cant explain it. I guess I just need a vacation from them. I need a vacation from everybody...(and no, its not that time of the month tards :P) I guess that isnt a lot, but whatever. It is if your in my shoes. Im gonna go to sleep now...nighty night
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I am sooooo happy!!!!!! I got EQ back lol :) THIS KEYBOARD IS JACKED UP!!!! Same computer again...lol its Rugina and I's spot:)Now Shauna is in our lil row...thing...
I went swimming yesterday at Shaunas house ^_^ Linnie, Chels, Dayna, and Katie came over too. Sean Rector and Garr were over...omfg Sean=HOTTIE ^_^ Lol wow, i was in tinkini...i looked hot :P lol :) Then we went to Chels's house because shaunas pool was freezin! Chelseas pool was warm and O.o nice. Its supposed to be freeking 90 degrees today. i wanna go swimming again but my moms working late and i gotta baby sit again! >< If you wanna do something call me. ill be bored :P
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computer is still jacked up.. but im trying to fix it. im in english right now...and i have the whole class period to do nothing since im done with my paper. bye... this keyboard is retarded...
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[04 Jun 2004|08:50pm] |
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Wow okay lots of stuff happened! first of all, my computer is jacked up so i cant updated as much as i want to....so yeah im at chuck and libbys right now...we're BBQing then going to see Harry Potter :))) Im so excited! Okay yeah...
Wednesday night I couldnt take it anymore...I called Ryan. I couldnt stop thinking about him. I said a lot of shit about him before, calling him a loser and crap but iunno, i meant it at the time...but now i regret saying it. I thought I was over him, but I wasnt. It was horrible :/ Last Saturday I had a party, right? Well I made out with Matt >< But when I kissed him I thought it would make me forget about Ryan but it didnt...it made me think about him more. I couldnt help myself, I love him, yah know?
So he said he was gonna go to his bros, but he ends up not going. He finished something on EQ then got back on AIM to talk to me. I was in a shitty mood because I thought this was all gonna lead to another heartbreak...
Thursday night I call him around 11, and we stayed up till 3am! Lol I was gonna shoot him! But it paid off...We're back together and Im sooo happy :) When I told my girlfriends, they were happy, cept Shauna. Shes gotten better about it now tho, I just wanna let her know Im not gonna stop hanging out with them to be with Ryan. I promise you all, unless its his birthday or anniversary or something :P
Wanna know how it went? Okay...I was quiet on the phone...listening to the love songs from Moulin Rouge...and he knew something was wrong. It wasnt that it was wrong, I just wanted to tell him everything I was feeling, but I just couldnt. I didnt want to be hurt again. He knew what I wanted to tell him, and we had this whole lil convo about how I cant read him :P I was like yeah right :P So I finally told him the best I could, all i said was, I love you. He didnt really say anything after. We just sorta kept talking. Then all of a sudden he said something really quick and like, I heard him, but I wanted him to say it again, and he was like, I love you. I said I love you too, then he asked if we had a long enough break. I answered yes, and then he said, too long? And i smiled and giggled and said yes.
When we were almost done talking, he told me he was sorry. I told him it was okay, and I forgive him and sutff because it made me realize what I was taking for granted. How it was awful that I wanted to be around him 24/7...ALL the time. I mean 4 hours of EQ talking on top of a long ass phone convo? I dont think so! Hes not that type of guy...He likes affection, but needs his space when he wants to be left alone. Even Im like that...Taking for granted? He helped me get Megan back, he was there for me allllll the time during all of my suicide attempts, my grandpa getting cancer, my nina getting cancer and all sorts of other shit. Thats crap NO one can replace, you know? My girlfriends were there for me too, and they were there for me, physically. And I owe them as much or more than Ryan.
I think Im gonna go watch TV on their huge tv >< Omg I love it here, I wanna live here >< IT ISNT FAIR!!! >< okay lol *deep breath* So yeah...Ill be home later...the food isnt done yet :P
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[26 May 2004|01:19pm] |
LOOK OUT!
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[26 May 2004|01:06pm] |
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OMG Jacksons class AGAIN >< Okay im done with this class...IM DONE WITH SCHOOL >< okay im done ranting!!! >< >< >< ><
OMG I cant wait till saturday ^_^ We're filming our Spanish project early because my parents are leaving at 4 and wont get back till about 3AM ^_^ While my parents are away, I SHALL PLAY! XD Paaaaaaaaaarty! well, a small one. I just invited Shauna Linnie Dayna Chelsea Tanner Aaron and Matt <3 It'll be fun, blaring music outta the surround sound thing, watchin movies or playin games. I have no idea what else to do...It might be boring >< ack kill me now ill be so embarassed if ppl get bored or something. >< Im such a freeking perfectionist...its nuts but oh well.
This is a random jounal post because I turned in my paper yesterday and im waiting for her to correct it!
Shauna hasnt even started hers...naughty girl! Get your shit done then post on here :P
I think Im gonna go to quizilla and take some quizzes...maybe Ill post them...MAYBE NOT >D lol
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[25 May 2004|09:30pm] |
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I have no idea anymore. I want to tell him what Ive been feeling for him but on 2nd thought I think its too early to tell him anything. If I could tell him, how can I tell him? How can you tell someone that you make them the happiest theyve ever been in your life? I guess Im just scared Im gonna get hurt again...who the fuck am I kidding i KNOW thats the reason why I wont tell him. Or, part of the reason.
How can I ever trust anyone with my heart again?...If there really is someone out there for me, Im waiting for you...I think Im on a path towards someone but then again Im apprehensive to telling him...It isnt right, not this early. We've only hung out a few times! Maybe this is just a puppy love feeling and maybe a real love situation is just waiting...just waiting. I have no idea what to trust now, my heart or my head.
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[25 May 2004|01:35pm] |
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0= I don't know you
1= I like you
2= I love you!!
3= You are funny
4= You are cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I want to fuck you
7= You are sexy!
8= You have a nice body
9= I want to get to know you
10= I hope you die
11= Marry me, PLEASE?
12= wanna have sex later???
LETS HAVE MORE COMMENTS THAN LAST TIME (scroll down to fill that one in :P ) <3 me
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[25 May 2004|01:28pm] |
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What is uuuuuuuuupppp people! Yeah Jacksons class in the computer lab again so I get to sit here for the last few minutes of class and do nothing. HOW FUN IS THAT?!?! Ill update more when I get home, I think the bell should be ringing soon >
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[24 May 2004|01:03pm] |
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English class now! wooo...omg no. Stupid essay...i need to be in honors english but stupid band 1st hour >< I wish i quit when i could of lmao...oh well. I have a doctors appointment i think at 4 today :/ im scared the fag is gonna hurt my back and hip more then help me. Oh well...thats kinda the way Im feeling right now about some more things but thats gonna be in a private entry or something. Wow...30min left and theres nothing to do! Go Mrs. Jackson...>< shauna needs a mouse...this is funny watching her try to use a computer without one lol. Kenny is in the hallway...lol that kid is so funny...this class is fun when we all act up and make fun of her. shauna just hit her computer..should i hit her now? lol...omg this kid in front of me just pulled his pants up to his chest then they fell back down to like his knees...wtf? baggy pants are soooo hot but not THAT baggy. 69 <~~ shauna. 6969696969696969696969696969696969696969696969<~~ shauna again.
WOW lsat night was FUN omg i forgot about that until now!! Rofl we played the damn Sims until 1AM lol. Then they all fell asleep and yeah i went to bed too. They were trying to steal my cuddle pillows :/ I wouldnt of minded if *someone* was there and spent the night but i was ALONE and COLD...lol. Private post will reveal who *someone* is..if your reading this and you know who it is your obviously one of my best friends. Oh yeah, they were only gonna come over for a little bit but it started storming really bad and all their power went out cept at my house so they stayed over lol. It was fun as hell...it was the first time i got to school before 7:30 ALL year. i was like umm yall should come over more often! (shauna loves ***** forever!!!!) okay yeah that was shauna because i had to get up to turn my paper in lol. i knoooooowwwww who it isss haha you dont :P wow this is a reallllly random post...oh well! i think im gonna go search for an icon because i like blue instead of pink now! ill ttyl...ill prolly post again because ill get bored..
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[22 May 2004|02:46pm] |
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Yesterday was SO FUN! Omg i think i died and had a heart attack! HE KISSED ME SOOOO MANY TIMES! okay anyways, I won 2 games of bowling! It was sweeet. well anyways chuckie cleared my computer and now its awesome! so yeah im gonna finish talking to matt, take a shower then install the sims because i have a strange urge to make something. if anyone wants to come over gimmie a call!
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[21 May 2004|09:28am] |
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Matts at Regionals!!! (Go Matt!!!!) And im at school being bored in Biology because I got all my work done! So i changed my password on here because it needed to be changed and now im gonna go change my email address lol. i was wandering around peoples journals and I found this! (Thanks Chrissy!)
Fill it out abouts me.
What Would You Do If...
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
What Do You Think About My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Family:
Room:
Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
What makes me happy?
What makes me sad?
What reminds you of me?
If you could give me anything what would it be?
Are you going to put this on your liveJournal and see what I say about you?
what can you see me doing in 10 years?
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[21 May 2004|12:22am] |
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okay these were too good to be left unread:
^^^ Thats pretty hot, dont you agree?!?! ><
OMG OMG OMG *dies* Peeves, or OLIVER WOOD!??!?! um I DONT NEED TO THINK! COME HERE OLIVER!!
wtf rofl...
and im really bored sooo:
Mrs. Jackson
Circle I Limbo Bill Clinton
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind PETA Members
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle IV Rolling Weights Kenneth Milch
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled River Styx Any annoying person in this whole entire world
Circle VI Buried for Eternity River Phlegyas Saddam Hussein
Circle VII Burning Sands Democrats
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement Osama bin Laden
Circle IX Frozen in Ice Design your own hell |
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I SEEN SHREK2 TODAY!! OMG BEST MOVIE EVER!!!!!
Okay well tomorrow is Friday...thank god! And i might be hanging out with Matt on friday and saturday...fuckin shit that i have to bring people! maybe ill just sneak out O.o i have no idea. well its thunderstorming so im gonna go lay in my bed nekkid because i just got outta the shower. later :)
<3 meg
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[19 May 2004|10:51pm] |
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Chels is threatening to kill me if i dont update! so here we go!!!
Okay I havent updated in awhile! Well all the other posts are gone because they are annoying and need to rot in hell (along with the people in them) okay im done ranting! I HAVE GOOD NEWS!!!
Hottie that Shauna introduced me too...omg im gonna freeking die. Okay chill *deep breath* rofl k :) Met him today, it was awesome! We went to meijer and had a fun time trying to find him lol. Im still scared that Shauna might still be mad at me because of the whole situation with her and him but I have no idea. As far as I know, shes okay with me getting to know him and stuff. Had a half day today too, so right after school Shauna came over and we chilled. Then Chelsea came over, then Lindsay came over for an hour or two or something. We prank phone called people and crap...omg it was fun lol. Then we called Matt lol :) He was getting ready to go to Tennis practice so he had to go but oh well...Shauna and Chelsea went to meijer with my mom and my brothers and sisters to meet him because I didnt want to go alone.
Ummm what else is there...I have all A's except for Geometry (B+ im so pissed) and Spanish is a C because I suck at spanish. if i would of redid that quiz that i got 5/20 on ide have an A in that class! oh well..lol.
Tomorrow Im gonna go see Shrek2 with Chuck and Libby for sure...I dont know about the rest of my family. I want to invite Matt but I dont know if he has practice or is working..gotta ask him tonight if he comes on. I asked Chels but she said shes going to the girls' soccer game at 4:30 so that leaves me alone! im bummed...lol.
Not much really else going on...Ive cheered up a lot because Ive been with my girlies so much now, I love it ^_^ Lindsay is with her Ryan, and they are happy so that makes me happy :) I have theories about Chels and who she likes about him liking her, and Shauna wants to Leon Aaron :P lol (omg shes gonna shoot me) I gotta go dry my hair because I just got out of the shower...later :)
<3 Meg
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